I have ignored it, berated myself, wished it away and cowered in shame and feelings of failure for too long.
But I'm done. I have to be. I have fought obesity my entire life, and that SOB will not win. Food, as much as I love it, will not have the upper hand.
Starting today, January 11, 2014, I will take back control in the way that I know how...back to basics.
I know that I cannot exercise out a bad diet. Diet is 80%...if I'm not eating well, I'm not feeling well, and if I'm not feeling well, I'm not moving. And on the flip side, if I'm feeling well, I'm eating well and moving more.
I'm in the ditch...I need to make a turn for the better.
For me back to basics is
- tracking and, at times, weighing and measuring my food--knowledge is power
- paying attention to hunger signals
- knowing why I'm eating...and it better be because I'm hungry
- eating protein and veggies first
- getting enough water
- moving my body every day, mixing it up and trying new things
- getting strong and staying strong--no excuses
- today's starting weight...177. Goal weight by April 11th...147.
- check in on the 11th of each month with progress update...stay accountable.
I'm scared. I'm afraid that I will fail and be back at 300 pounds before I know it...my head has certainly planted those seeds before and it has done it again.
It won't be easy. Anyone who has ever struggled with weight knows this. At times, it will hit the fan and hunger, as well as the sugar/carb demons will rear their ugly heads. I know this...I haven't struggled with obesity because I handle them well.
I know the time is now to do some weeding in my brain. I need to pull those negative seeds of self-doubt and re-seed it with positive and motivating messages. I have to count on all I have learned though my journey to get through day by day, meal by meal, if need be.
My dear followers and friends...help me to stay accountable. If you know personally, check in and ask me how I'm doing. If you know me virtually, please do the same.
And if you're on the same journey, please let me know and I will do the same for you.
I'm done. I
Just like that...
Good luck! I am also starting to eat clean and healthy again. lost 30lbs before my wedding and have gained 10lbs back.....not letting that happen!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Kala! Congratulations on your pre-nuptial success. :-) It's so frustrating, isn't it? We've got this! Good luck!! Please check in again, and let me know how you're doing. Cheers!
DeleteI love this. I can feel the passion and am looking forward to seeing you succeed.
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Thank you so much! I have 30 pounds to lose and everything good to gain. :-)
DeleteYou can definitely do this. It sounds like you have all your plans thought out :)
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Rachel. In my head, I know what to do...now I have to put my strength behind my knowledge. Thank you again for your visit and your encouragement. It means a lot. :-)
DeleteI love back to basics stuff. Keeping things simple really works for me when there are many difficult things in my life. I used to journal at every meal what I was feeling and how I was feeling about the food I was about to eat. It was very helpful. Good Luck Kelly!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Tara! I have to keep it simple...one day at a time. I journal as well. I keep good track of food...not such good track of where my head is when I eat. It's a good idea. Thanks so much!
DeleteYou can totally do it!! I always try and go back to the basics whenever I am struggling with my diet. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Kerry. So far, it's been a good week. I keep "Back to Basics" as a mantra, along with when in doubt, hydrate, and finally, protein first. One meal at a time. Thank you for the encouragement...I will take it. :-)
DeleteI have been there for sure! My high was 215, goal is 147 like you and I am currently 165. 147 is unchartered territory for me...my lowest was 150 for a short period of time. I've changed up my exercising and caned up my eating. We can both get to 147! I blog over at www.whatadventuresawait.blogspot.com I would definitely love an accountability partner :)
ReplyDeleteHeey im so glad I found this post. This is exactly how I feel! It can be hard feeling like you have to start all over again... trust me I know! However like uni always go back to the basics... they just work!!!!
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